Was so downhearted and at such a low ebb because he made it painfully clear I didn't figure in that great club's future, however much I loved the place. He was so tough, so unbending and uncompromising, and I don't think he's changed. He made doubly sure I realised I was an outcast in a heavy-handed way -- and he couldn't get rid of me fast enough. I felt then as if my whole life had collapsed. And he's made it even worse just now by raking ashes that are three years old. Why? What's he trying to do to me? He got rid of me and that should have been the end of it. But in a book he's written he's had a real big pop at me in a sour way. And it's just not on. # Concerned Fergie has been saying that he was so concerned about my life-style away from football he called in Sir Matt Busby, the club doctor and even a parish priest to try to get me sorted out.